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Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in Cherry's LiveJournal:

Saturday, April 26th, 2003
5:06 pm
hmm
So everything has been good, i dont remember the last time i wrote. But I am really happy lately, I think its cause i kissed angel, and i knew i liked him, and this just makes me see that i like him more. So Star said there is a junior college in arizona, im seriously thinking that im going to look it up and get information. That would be so awesome. I dont know though. Last night was kinda fun, but im so sick, because it was so cold. And yeah kind of akward, well not for me but i think for looney, cause it was his girlfriend that was there. I love benji, he is so cute, damn, hook me up. Thank god i only have 42 days left of school that is counting weekends and non school days, cause im done with school. Yahooo. I really want tickets to the 50 concert, but i dont know how im supposed to get there, but whatever, because i doubt stars parents are gonna let her drive, but we could always lie right?

Current Mood: calm
Friday, April 11th, 2003
12:57 pm
Fuck Girls!
I hate girls. I do not understand what the fuck baby j just fuckin pulled. He can fuck off for all i care. I seriously am DONE with him and that whole group. Fuck all of them, and Cassandra i hope you are happy with a guy that fucks with your head all the time, and a guy that is going to cheat on you. FUck you all. Love, Cherry

Current Mood: pissed off
Saturday, April 5th, 2003
7:58 pm
Its done
Its done for reals this time. Im done with those type of guys, well at least that hang out with eachother. Last night i had a lot of fun. I knew that my Baby was at his ex's house, but whenever i asked him he denied it, so like the dumbass that i am, I believed him. Well so last night was fun and all, but then today i get a phone call from Cassandra, stupid bitch. She only helped me prove my point that he was there. She is psycho seriously. Thank you Cassandra for proving my point. Fuck you baby, see i saw right through you, I even told you, you were going to her house,and you fucking lied. What is up with guys, I seriously cant find myself a good guy. Why not, I think that i at least deserve somebody that will treat me good, and not LIE! Whatever, Im done with it. Im done with dating guys for a while. Fuck guys, thats all I have to say. Except for my homeys, cause I had fun with them. I can at least trust some of them, fuck you nasty smell. Thanks for taking my money, that shows how a homey treats eachother. Fucker. Everything was awesome this weekend. Except for a couple things. I am happy cause last night kinda was sucking for a while. I hope nobodys mad at me, cause I was trying to do to many things at once. Whatever. Love, Cherry

Current Mood: confused
Thursday, April 3rd, 2003
8:17 pm
So I really dont know where the fuck I am in my life right now. I dont....I need to stop bangin' and i know that. I cant do this anymore. This is to much drama. To live this whole life for what 17 years now. God, I need to get out of it. As much as I love the way im living, I hate it at the same time. School sucks, boys suck, life just sucks. I realized today that im not over Vince. Everytime Quita talks about him, I feel my eyes get a little teary. Im very happy Star gets her car back tomorrow. That is going to be good, cause now we will be able to do whatever we want to do. Now that im with Baby J, I dont really know if Im happy. I am cause I like him, but I dont need this drama, with the blood shit and all. Theres enough of that. Oh well, maybe tomorrow will be good. Although today was good, I dont know. Kick Back.

Current Mood: mellow
Monday, March 31st, 2003
7:44 pm
What to do?
So I really am confused. So I like Baby J, but i dont know, cause it seems like a lot of drama with him. And i told myself after I broke up with Vince that I was done with guys that live that life style. But i do kinda like him. And i know he likes me alot. But all this shit with his ex.....what the fuck is that? And then about William..thats just confusing, and plus I dont even really think he is even that cute. But whatever. I dont know what to do. Hopefully this weekend will be fun,because its really been sucking lately. I hopefully will stay with Jeff one night. But I dont know, so about Busted, what the fuck does she want, ohh im gonna kick her ass, come on and try it...DUMBASS Bitch..Anyways, shits going ok...I guess...........

Current Mood: mellow
Tuesday, March 25th, 2003
9:30 pm
I cannot take this shit
So fuck everything. I am still in a bad fucking mood. I hate this bull shit. I get grounded for a week and my phone taken away, all because of one fucking dumb ass salad. Im sorry i was fucking hungry, and i wasnt even eating the fucking bull shit. I was just sitting there, so why the fuck was i involved with all this bull shit. Fuck all this. I cannot wait untill june 5th when i get the fuck out of that school. You know that, i seriously feel like i just dont need to go on anymore. Yet im not going to end my life yet, just wait a little bit. Act like everything is alright, and then just surprise everybody. Fuck the world. They can all suck it. I fucking hate dumb fucking people, you know if i could kill somebody i so would, probably about 30 different people. Fuck all this fucking bull shit.

Current Mood: pissed off
8:59 am
This is all Bull Shit
All i have to say is fuck SAN MARCOS. At least the school. You know all these damn fucking people hounding me all the damn time. What the fuck is up with that. I just need to get the fuck out of here. I need to go somewhere. Back to my old hood, where everything was all good. I hate everybody that lives and breathes in San Marcos. It is the dumbest town ive ever been in, and has the dumbest people ive ever met. Fuck stupid dumb ass people. And to William....dont try and play the game, it wont work. Hopefully Friday will be fun, and I hope im not missing out on not going to the gay ass dance. I get to hang out with my boys and get faded. Fuck this shit.

Current Mood: annoyed
Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
8:22 pm
Fuck This
This weekend was so fucked up. So now my mom sypes on me? What the fuck is that? Psycho bitch....I mean seriously this weekend sucked. Ive been sober all weekend. Like I know i should be since I am on probation and all. But I mean when have i ever been sober for a weekend? Especially lately? I mean Friday is my getting faded days. And then this friday I cant, because my parents are fucking psycho, what the fuck. I am so fucking pissed. And then come on fuckin Bart, what the fuck. You cant get me a damn scoop of Ice cream,cause I "never" get anything for you. What the fuck is that. Hell no. I have never gotten you one fucking thing ever? Ever? You fucking little bitch. Fuck off, see if i ever do anything for you ever again. YOu know, everybody pretty much thinks that my life is easy, and that I have an easy life. But fuck that. DO I? NO. There is so much drama. With this gang sweep going on, what the fuck are we supposed to do. I mean what the fuck we cant just chill on the street corner. Fuck the police. And Bart. Fuck everybody. I just need to smoke a fuckin bowl. June 5, 2003..you need to come soon. FUCK YOU ALL.

Current Mood: pissed off
Sunday, March 16th, 2003
9:09 pm
Shit
I love you Benz...you know your my baby. Im so happy that the cops that pulled you over didnt take you to jail. Baby i would fucking have died. You violated parole and you would have been locked up for 2 years. I would of died with out you. I love you. How would i go on if he got locked up? He just got out about a year ago. God he cant go back to jail. He needs to be smart at what he is doing. Im so happy that he is finally getting his act together, because shit, what would i ever do with out him. I love him, we will get married. When he breaks up with his girlfriend.

Current Mood: stressed
8:11 pm
Love
So here i am agian. I just have to say one thing to the one I love, and to most of the guys that have been in my life.....When you have a girl and she is good for you, keep her, dont cheat on her. Dont tell her you love her, and be fucking around behind her back. You only need one girl, if the girl your with doesnt do it for you, dont keep her on your side and tell her you love her, when your fucking other girls. I love you Vince and I always will. We both fucked up, you more than me, but i did too. I fucked up so bad to have you not want to be with me, what is that. The worst feeling in the world is when the person you love is standing right next to you, and you cant have them. I love you Vince, I know your not the one for me, but for this phase of my life, you made me so happy, happier than ive ever been before in my life. I love you so much. Im happy we will always be friends.

Current Mood: lonely
8:02 pm
Great Weekend
I had so much fun this weekend. What a trip. Friday rocked, like i knew it would, cause it always does. I got fucked up as usual. I saw all my boys. I love each and everyone of them. Eye was a dick though, i think hes just mad at me. Oh well fuck him. Well Saturday rocked too, I went to a party with my krew. We had alot of fun. Floor is my babe. Then the fight broke out, I like Blue, but he did deserve to get his ass WHOOPED. Go Shadow. Then work today. That was alirgh, kinda boring, but oh well its money. Anyways, LB always calls me and acts like hes my friend, when I know he still wants me, but he cant help himself to do anything but talk shit about me cause thats how bad he wants me. I saw Edgar last night, he is so cute. And then I hear that Gilly gets his ass beat by Turtle. He deserves it, I mean yeah he is my best friend and all, but maybe he wont be so full of himself anymore. I know he trys to act all hard, but when your face is mangled and you cant even tell its you, you need to back the fuck down, and stop talking shit. Haha, little bitch.

Current Mood: sleepy
Friday, March 14th, 2003
12:32 pm
Yeah Its Friday
Im so happy its Friday.Today has been a good day so far. These girls in my class are really cool. Tonight Im going to party.. Thank god. So in TRC today, this guy was all hitting on me, and I really want to get with him, but he has a girlfriend. And i dont know, i just cant see myself doing that. Well I do miss Vince, but Im happy he treats Quita like shit, cause that makes me see that it wasnt just me, but its him. Thank god. I really need to complete my mission tonight. Maybe with somebody good. But who fucking knows. Well peace out, ill be back tomorrow.

Current Mood: silly
Thursday, March 13th, 2003
8:22 am
Im Done
Im done with school, Im so over it. What is even the point of coming to this shit hole? I cant wait to get the fuck out of here. By the time I get out of here, I will be able to live the life I used to. Getting high all the time. I actually have to come to school know, which really sucks ass. Gilly isnt a dick, he just likes people to think he is,and that really bugs me. But hey what can I do about it. So yesterday, Vince and Quita were holding hands, and of course I was there hanging out with them. What the fuck. But I think he doesnt like to show her affection when Im around. No shit, cause we all know he still wants me. My psychologist, is such a freak. Who the fuck cares if i get mad? What is he going to do about it? Please tell me this. I think I just need to get some, and then I will be fine. Hopefully tomorrow, will be good. Tonight is work. I hate it, but hey its money, well its not enough money though. I need more. Thats why me and Star are gonna start dealing "mints". Its not like ive never slanged before in my life. I mean shit, how do you think i got all that money when i had no job. Thats probably the easiest job one could have. With these "mints" were gonna make big bucks. And somebody name Monika wont be there to tell on us anymore. You dumb jealous bitch. Fuck you, I will kill you. Just watch, im thinking either execution style, or stabbing. Well see..I know you cant wait to find out.

Current Mood: mellow
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